"No one cares about what you write, what you say or what's on your mind. Why bother blogging or wasting your time with that stupid writing?" shrieks a banshee.
"No one - wait, I didn't say that strong enough - NO ONE will read what you write. You are not JK Rowling and I can't believe you're trying to mash Stephenie Meyer and Rick Riordan. How stupid are you? Really?" mocks a jaded phantom.
"You can't seriously be considering self-publishing? You can't draw stick figures right and editors are too expensive. Can't happen. Just can't," says a ghastly being anxious to hammer away at the existence of my dreams. Before awakening, the being fades to the fringes of my mind, but I shudder at how much it looks like me.
This Halloween, I wanted to share with you the most frightening place I know. It is the Fright From Within.
Welcome to Door E. I call it the Embodiment of doubt. It manifests itself and sometimes sends it's ghostly minions slithering beneath it's triple-steel, quadruple locked door, torturing my mind with its brash taunts, ridicules of my dreams and blatant kicks when I'm clearly feeling down. It makes Mommy Dearest look like the Fairy Godmother. Sometimes, my mind messes up the following message:
"I want to talk to Rox and Doree today," somehow turning it into, "I want to unlock Door E today." Don't ask me how the message get's jacked up, but it does, and this is my reaction:
But I've gotten better at transitioning from that to this:
Of course, such an event calls for a heart to heart with management for letting them out in the first place. Have to go over that whole Pandora analogy.
So this Halloween, while vampires, ghouls, witches and zombies are all the rage, try to keep a good eye on the Fright that lies within. It's a fiend that will go bump in the daytime as well as at night. It will try to stop you from publishing that book, or seeking representation for that story or researching for that book that doesn't seem to have many writers addressing that niche. It's one of those things that doesn't want to stop. What are your thoughts about the Fright from within?