Wednesday, February 1, 2012

IWSG, Award and Ninja writing

The insecurity I have right now is that the novel I'm working on won't live up to what people expect.  There's a bit of romance between long time friends, some paranormal from devil spawn and vampires and fae but I've noticed that when I re-read it, I'm mostly intrigued with just the story: girl gets the one thing she doesn't want and stands to lose everything she desires because of it.  Nothing beautiful or spectacular about the writing.  I couldn't help thinking of this when I thought of the wonderful writing I've encountered in the last number of things I've read.  This is probably the first story I'm very afraid to share with others (one exception and you know who you are because you had a chance to check it out in all it's lunacy and lack of any kind of sense when I started it for NaNo).  I know of a couple of other people who may want to see it but, for the first time, I'm actually having to get my mind in a meditative mode for beta readers.  I thought I'd gotten used to this by now.

*serious shudders*

Okay, trying not to dwell on that long.  This award I've been given helps.  Tracey Joseph kindly passed me the Two Thumbs up from Skunk award.  Comes with flowers.  How adorable!!
He's no stinker :-)

So I'm supposed to name one thing I like about myself.  Um.  Hmmm...uh...  Let me see.  I suppose I like having an open mind.  I've had a chance to learn about so many things and meet different people by NOT being a narrow minded individual living in tunnel vision.  I have every chance every day to live down to stereotypes and low expectations but instead I try to keep my mind open to the possibilities.  I doubt I could write fantasy or paranormal without an open mind.

I'm terrible at passing awards on so let me please thank Tracey again and go on before I send myself off on a two hour process of never selecting the three blogs.  Just know that if I do a giveaway on my blog, the prize winner will HAVE to be chosen by random.org.  lol!!!

Before I bring this post to a close, I wanted to point you to the NiNoCon button in my sidebar, the one with the flexible silouhette kicking serious air-patooty.  Yeah, that's no longer around the corner...just a few days away.  I encourage those that can to particpate.  Here is the link to the schedule.  Thanks to the fab Ali Cross for organizing this :-)

Speaking of writing conferences, do you try to participate in one?  If so, which one(s)?

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  1. Lovely post, Angela. I think we all have that fear sometimes that our work isn't good enough, hopefully that feeling will pass. And it's great to have an open mind because there are so many people out there who don't.

    As for conferences, the only one I've attended is WriteOnCon. I'm looking forward to attending again this year. :)

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    1. I wanted to attend all of WriteOn Con last year but only managed to check out a couple of sessions. I hope it goes again this year. I think I will plan to lock myself at home for the whole thing.

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  2. I have yet to go to a conference but will one of these days. I never see any advertised in my area. i think most are held on the East Coast.

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    1. Stephen! I try to attend one here in Texas, held in Austin. It's the Agents and Editors Writer's conference. I don't think I'll be able to do it this year but I hope to get there next year. I'm hoping to find a smaller less expensive retreat style someone in the state as well.

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  3. An open mind is a wonderful thing right?

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    1. Yes it is, Jon. Life must be pretty flat without an open mind, or at least I'm not sure how much dimension one can have with a very narrow mind.

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  4. I wanted to do NiNoCon, but now I don't think I'm going to be near a computer :( I think we all assume we are weaker than we really are. You are strong, I can tell by the character I see on this blog. You're writing is better than you think it is!

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    1. Thanks J.A. I don't know what's come over me. Maybe the human need to compare works crawled into my mind and sent my Inner Critic into a frenzy.

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  5. I know the feeling! Sometimes, we write books and feel great about them and then there are those books that are so much more effort and that come with so much self-doubt. But you're doing it anyway, and putting yourself out there--and you can only improve that way. (And I'm loving the idea of romance between long time friends. :D)

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    1. You know, Laura. I think you just nailed. When I started this WiP, it was just a mess I was doing for NaNoWriMo but then I really liked it and decided to really work on it. Now I'm just so, I don't know...probably fearful for no reason. I've more chances to improve it. I need to remember that.

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  6. I used to go to a lot of conferences but I haven't had time lately. Once the excitement of my book release slows I hope to attend a few later this year. PNWA and Surrey International are at the top of my list.

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    1. I hope all continues successfully for your books. I still think you are just the sweetest thing for writing Born of Fire and giving it to us to enjoy for free. I mean, you seriously ROCK.

      I've heard the Surrey International was a really good one. Will have to get more details on it.

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  7. Once you pass it along, I bet your beta readers see it all.
    Congratulations on the award!

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    1. Thank you. Once I wrap things up and give it a once over, it'll be off to beta readers and I'll have to give my attention over to another project so as not to sit and worry about it.

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  8. I'm planning on NiNoCon as well as LDStorymakers. As far as sharing, I think you will find people really like what you have. Trust yourself :)

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    1. Thanks, Tasha. I suppose the only thing I can do is give it a try, get some feedback and work on things from there.

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  9. Great post, Angela. And you know what I think? I think you should just write what you want to write and get the first draft all the way out. You can always go back and revise and polish and fix things that are bothering you, but you can't do that unless the whole story is written in some form first! Of course, I can say that, but I can't so it - queen of polishing and repolishing the written part and never finishing the story here :)

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    1. Susanna, your words are sooooo true. Still working it out and should be ready to do my first round of actual revisions very soon. Just wish this Inner Critic would sit down somewhere and hush without me having to hog tie her and toss her in a closet.

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  10. I have that worry about my current WIP ... that the story just doesn't make the cut. Perhaps that's why I've been "cheating" on it by making plans for other stories. Brainstorming, outlining, dreaming.

    It's only a first draft. Maybe it will get better. But am I insecure about it? Oh yeah.

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    1. LOL @ "cheating on it" Oddly, I think I've been doing the same thing.

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  11. I've been to a few conferences, most notably the Backspace Conference in New York. I didn't get that much out of it. I'd say go local and don't pay too much to get in front of an agent.

    As far a lack of confidence, that happens to everyone, especially the more that you read your own work. Listen to those around you who love it. They're not lying to you. ^_^

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    1. I wish I could go to the WLT conference in Austin. But I'll have to try for another time.

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  12. I know exactly where you are coming from. There are some stories you know work and there are not so many nerves in showing them to the world. Then there are the ones you're not quite sure about. But that's what beta-readers are for (as you pointed out to me today) and I'm sure you'll probably be nicely surprised by what your beta-readers have to say.

    Congratulations on the award!

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    1. Thanks, Ellie. Suppose I should listen to my own advice, huh? lol!!!

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  13. I understand exactly where you're coming from., though I bet your beta readers will be able to help you isolate the feeling of discontent, and offer suggestions. We're often very hard on ourselves and become too close to our work to judge properly.

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    1. Le sigh. The life of a writer. Wait, did I just say that? That's write, insecure or not, I am a writer.

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  14. Congrats on the award. That's one I've not seen before. It made me smile!

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    1. That was the first time I'd seen it as well. Skunky's kinda adorable. :-)

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  15. I haven't gone to any real conferences yet. I think I need to work up the bravery for that some more. Haha.

    Anyway, good luck with your WIP! I totally get where you're coming from. For a while, I had no trouble sending stuff as soon as it was written to my writing partner, but recently, I've been self conscious about it. I'll keep it to myself or at least until I've revised it a few times. :P

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    1. That's exactly it. This is the first thing where I'm having trepidation about sending it out. But I know that good beta readers are going to help me. So I need to get over myself lol!!!

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  16. Congrats on the award. I say concentrate and build on what you like about the story and it will flourish into something great.

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    1. That's pretty good advice. Thank you, Ciara.

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  17. Congrats on your award!

    Maybe you should rest your book for a bit longer an then edit it before sending it out to be critiqued? :-)

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    1. I hadn't thought of setting it aside. I probably should. Give me and it a slight break from each other.

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  18. Congrats on the award!

    I love writing conferences, as exhausting as they are. It's a great way to meet really fun people.

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    1. You are so right. I met the fabulous Maria Zaninni and Evelyn Palfrey at the first one I went to. Exhausting but so much fun.

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  19. I love this type of educational blog very much.Nice effort. Keep it on with this type of post......
    Research Writing

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  20. I always get "want to crawl under the bed" syndrome when I push SEND to my beta readers or crit. group. I want them to think my baby is pretty. As for conferences, I love SCBWI-LA. I always come away with mind buzzing inspiration.

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