I remember hearing a song. Robin Thicke, I think, was the name of the musician. The lyrics blasted from a car parked near the cathedral. One refrain stuck in my head. "I want everything I can't have".
If I had to pick a theme song for my life as Abigail Bishop, that would be it.
I wanted love as a child. I got...something else.
I wanted to die, to end it all. I lived.
I wanted to be the best Cleanser I could be. That meant I could not have love. No attachments. Love equaled attachments. I found love with Basil. Timing sucked since emotions that caused attachments were supposed to have been trained out of me.
Now I want to save Father Quanon. But I'm not supposed to. I shouldn't care. But I do. I want him alive. And I want Drakar buried in the deepest pits of his own hell. Yeah, that is what I want.****
Looks like Drakar struck a nerve with Abby.