Insecure Writer's Support Group: Every first Wednesday of the month, we gather together to heap some extra joy on the glad tidings, and offer a pillow of support for the not-so-good that may be happening. Because let's face it, being a writer has its sucky moments. Thanks to Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh for first putting this together and for this month's helpful minions - erm - co-hosts for the July 3 posting of the IWSG: Nancy Thompson, Mark Koopmans, and Heather Gardner!
So what do I have to share for today?
Well, I wish I could be in that first group with good news of great things. Honestly, I got a few rejections for something I'm working on and took the rejections well. I ate sherbet instead of Rocky Road ice cream #wellhandled :-)
But it is the edge of almost that I nearly leaped from.
I ALMOST stopped writing completely.
Not a moment of writer's block, not a lack of story ideas (good grief the shiny ideas are all over the place and other MS's are still narrowing their eyes at me with a hint of impatience).
I had a moment of tearful discussion with my Chipmunk. She's been very supportive of me and really excited for me but I think the extra time I spent with her during my brief respite from the web got her accustomed to me being with her much more often. Coming back to being active - though not like before - was a harder thing for her to adjust to.
I shut my computer off and explained to her that my passion for writing is strong, it runs deep and I love it.
But I. Love.Her. More.
She's my kid and I love her. I really do. If my writing were to become less of a follow-your-dream-example and more of a strain-on-our-mother-daughter-relationship, I would leap from the edge of almost.
That time is not now. It may not come. I'm not really sure what the future holds, though I have fantasies of what I wished it held (#toomanytolist)
I'm still writing. And she's eager to get involved with the PB stuff I hope to get into. But it's kind of weird knowing it all came to a head.
*Just a note: if I would have stopped writing, it would've been to stop writing toward publication. Too many characters and stories in my head to never write again lol!
Have you had a sort of crossroads moment? How did you handle it?