I was in promo hog heaven trying to tell the world about my upper YA paranormal, Neverlove, trying to understand why it didn't take off and get two thumbs up by every reader or why I couldn't seem to get enough reviews for it. Why couldn't it get traction? Could it possibly be that a person of color on the cover is a detriment, immediately linking readers to expect an urban street tale and not a tale of painful loss, twisted love, and redemption mixed with paranormal elements? Maybe the writing truly just sucks...royally?
Lots of questions and doubts while I tried to push my first YA novel as a self-published author.
A year later, I've learned how much I love the cover and whether it is a detriment or not, I like it as is, though I may consider updating it so that it matches They All Fall Down. But that's just a thought. Other doubts still plague me, especially when I have moments where I slip into the dangerous "Comparison" zone *cue Twilight Zone's eerie music* Over the year, the comparisons have grown fewer and farther between, but in my humanity, I know I'll still have them.
A year later, I'm glad that one thing hasn't changed. Though doubts have tried to take it away, non-existent sales have attempted to discourage it...that writing passion still blazes. I have an MG story I'm still intrigued with updating with feedback I recently received. Despite agent rejections, I'm still interested in seeking an agent for it or maybe seeing if there is a small publisher that may want to give it a home. And if I don't do those things, I still have self-publishing as a wonderful avenue. I have some more adult-content stories ready to be shared. I still have other sci-fi/urban fantasy/paranormal/fantasy stories that won't stop nagging at me to be shared.
For this, I am grateful.
For this, I'm wonderfully blessed to indulge in this passion.
For this, I'm glad to have all of you around to share in this, my journey as an author and...a dreamer
What keeps you going in the writing journey?