Wednesday, February 4, 2015
IWSG - Allowing the Pause
Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!
Posting: The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. Visit others in the group and connect with your fellow writer - aim for a dozen new people each time. Be sure to link to this page and display the badge in your post.
Before I bought a flimsy poster board and added my 2015 and Life goals to it then tacked it up on the wall so I can view it each day, I had a moment of really thinking I'd failed big time. During October 2014, I'd started a manuscript - someting for my Rayven Godchild side - and just knew I could finish it before 2014 came to an end. But then NaNoWriMo happened and I thought, "Hey, maybe I can do a whole different MS for that then turn December into DecNoWriMo for the Godchild story!"
Life happened... and it doesn't barge in gracefully. Sometimes it's a tripping-falling-flailing interruption that leaves you worked over, worn out and a little worse for the wear. It wasn't unil after I dusted myself off that I really realized I hadn't made any of the progress I wanted on those two stories.
Although I didn't make it a public affair, I had a few moments where I was a yo-yo-ing bundle of emotions, upset for failing like I had. Litte Debbie Swiss Rolls were a friend to my taste buds but an enemy to my waist line.
Then, during a self-pity moment, wallowing in all the things that happened, I recognized one crucial thing: I was equating some instances of not being able to write (like times spent with my daughter) with procrastinating. Uh, that's not right. Spending time with my child is an investment in our relationship, a pretty important thing to work on. I cracked up understanding what my problem was: I hadn't given myself PERMISSION to pause from the uber-tight schedule I'd squeezed myself into.
A huge weight lifted with just that amendment in perspective. I bought that poster and got excited about what I wanted to accomplish for 2015. The two manuscripts will soon be joined by others, but now I'm going to do so remembering there are times I need to "allow the pause." I think my sanity is in tact (or slightly so lol!!!) because of these breaks.
Sometimes we have to know when to say "just a moment, please" and let ourselves breathe. It can be good for the soul.