Tuesday, April 10, 2012 | By: Angela Brown

Letter "I" - If

Out of life come two letters so small, it's no wonder they have such a terrible effect.

If.

If I had accepted my fate, understood I wasn't meant to be number one in everything,
If I hadn't made a deal with the devil,
If I had known the price was far steeper than I was truly willing to pay,
If I hadn't walked in this coffee shop,
If Abby weren't here,
Would I be questioning my role in Drakar's plans?
Would I be feeling - emotions - things a Harvestor is meant to shun and despise?
If I tell Abby even a tenth of the truth, will she shun and despise me?

With the sweet smell of her soul wafting beneath my nostrils, "if" becomes too dangerous a word.  I must remain a student in her eyes, a youth in college, though those years have been behind me for some time.  I must do what I can to keep her sweet smell near for as long as I can.
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A Harvestor falling in love.  Can Basil handle this change within himself?

41 comments:

Shelley Munro said...

Another cool post, Angela. I can feel the pain and yearning.

Linda Jackson said...

You are so talented, Angela. :)

Angela Brown said...

Thanks, Shelley. When I started this out, I mainly had the characters in my head and the thought of going with the star crossed lovers theme. This has been more fun than expected.

Angela Brown said...

Awwww...Linda. Now you have me grinning from ear to ear. I'm so humbled by your compliment. Thank you.

Cristina said...

Oh, I LOVE him... so is this a story that you're creating just for the challenge? because really, you need to make this into a book so I can read it :)
There are some elements that similar to my current WIP, so this is right up my alley!

Tracy said...

for such a small word it sure is powerful, isn't it? IF only we'd have stayed in Ohio, If only I wouldn't have driven that night....

Angela Brown said...

Yes, this was just for the challenge. But, I may consider taking this and making something more of it.

Angela Brown said...

I so understand where you're coming from. IF is such a tiny word. Two letters. Yet the word has the impact of a herd of elephants.

Lady Gwen said...

Man, I just know that girl is gonna fall in love with him - I'm half in love myself, lol. You are very good at this, Angela. You suck me in every time:)

Angela Brown said...

You are too kind Lady Gwen. I'm so glad you enjoyed it.

Leslie Rose said...

Love the web of "ifs" you wove.

Angela Brown said...

Glad you've enjoyed the reading thus far.

Krispy said...

IF, such a powerful word!

J.L. Campbell said...

A lot of 'if's'. Let's see what choices he makes.

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

So bittersweet!

Tyrean Martinson said...

Very bittersweet and beautifully written!

Sherry Parker said...

You have such a unique way of weaving words together, enticing us into the story. Love it!

Clarissa Draper said...

If is right. if you think too much about ifs, well...

Sangu Mandanna said...

Ooooh, I like! If is such a powerful word.

The Golden Eagle said...

Intriguing! You really got across the character's internal conflict. :)


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Damyanti said...

I write a lot of "what if" stories :)

--Damyanti, Co-host A to Z Challenge April 2012

Twitter: @AprilA2Z
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Angela Brown said...

Amazing, since it's such a tiny word.

Angela Brown said...

Oh J.L., there in is the rub, what choices WILL he make? Hmmm...

Angela Brown said...

So torn to have want he wants yet unable to tell her the truth of himself.

Angela Brown said...

Awww...Thank you so much for the compliment, Tyrean.

Angela Brown said...

Hey Sherry!! So glad you had a chance to read it and enjoy it.

Angela Brown said...

The road of "ifs" is a dangerous one indeed.

Angela Brown said...

Thanks, Sangu. So glad you liked it.

Angela Brown said...

Thank you so much. There's a lot to think about when you start doing everything contrary to what you were told, such is the case for this character.

Angela Brown said...

Those are the stories that often pull at the heartstrings.

Medeia Sharif said...

If is a loaded two letter word.

It's interesting seeing the character wonder what would happen if...

Great I post.

Kate Coursey said...

I really love this. Not only does it give you a good sense of the character, it really shows how the small choices in our lives have big consequences....there are so many "what ifs" to consider. Makes me think of BEFORE I FALL by Lauren Oliver, which is all about the butterfly effect.

Jamie Gibbs said...

If is definitely a bad word. "If" is the primary motivation for the Time Machine story, and that doesn't end too brilliantly.

Miranda Hardy said...

Great If post. Regret is a terrible feeling.

Cathy Olliffe-Webster said...

IF you didn't write so darned good I wouldn't be here! Wow, you know how to write, girl. That was just plain mesmerizing.

Angela Brown said...

Each letter I do in this blog opera, I'm learning more and more about each character.

Angela Brown said...

Thank you, Kate. So glad each person can see something in the post, especially about the internalization of this character's struggle with his feelings and how he got to this place.

Angela Brown said...

Yeah, that tend so happen when we try to change things that are better left alone.

Angela Brown said...

Isn't it? Even as a writer, some of us harbor feelings of regret, some much bigger than others.

Angela Brown said...

LOL!!! Well thank you so much, Cathy. I'm overjoyed this blog opera is being enjoyed. Please come on back by to see what happens next.

Susan Oloier said...

This post reads like poetry. Poor Basil. Such a tortured soul.

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